Hm. Suddenly thought of this topic and thought it was kinda interesting. I mean, I know how other people look at me kay, it's not like i'm blind or whatever. I just turn oblivious to their comments(If there are any).

Kay. Maybe.. Dulltard? I don't even know if such a word exists in the English Dictionary, and I don't intend to flip open that HUMONGUS BOOK just to find 1 word. Aye, procrastination is the thief of time indeed.

OK. SO IMMA DULLTARD. LOLOL The thought of saying it out loud makes me feel like laughing. :D Ok la, but it's true what. I mean, normally when other people see me in school the first thing they will think is "She probably belongs to the Robotics Club." And of course, I will know what they are thinking the moment I look at their faces. Like seriously, I BELONG TO A UNIFORMED GROUP CALLED GIRL GUIDES!!! I feel like shouting into their faces sometimes. But since they see me as a nerd. Ahwell. No harm seeing me that way anyway. But I think I AM one and I FEEL like one. Maybe that's the vibes i'm sending out to other people? Lol. I don't really mind other people thinking i like to study and read books and such. 'Cause that's what I really like to do. :) I mean reading books. Not studying. OH AND I LIKE TO KNIT AND CROSS-STICH. :D Old Granny much?

Ohyeah. Now that I think about it, people have been telling me since the start of the year that I look mature for my age. LIKE i'm mature? No, its my GLASSES that make me look mature. I SWEAR i'm going to wear contact lenses next year, 'cause Glasses are really irritating and they keep slipping off your nose AND THEY ALWAYS GET HIT BY BASKETBALLS. URGH. Hahah this reminds me of the time when I joined basketball in Primary school for the 1st day and my glasses got broken by a ball. :(

Sorry sorry I sidetracked. Now back to topic. :) Ok so now i'm a dulltard. @$#%^%&^*&(&(&*^&*%&^ I seriously want to wring the necks of people who said I was boring. You know there was this one time a guy from my class saw my phone's name was 'I am boring', and he immediately said "Woah so right." I seriously felt like slapping him after that. But I guess... I didn't really have the courage to do it. :(

I mean like yeah! I DO love anime and manga and blahblahblah but THAT does not make me weird! I mean, different people have different interests right? It's not likely that everybody shares the same interests. Music for example.

But then, I just don't really care about other people's opinions. Sometimes maybe. But I still think, that there's always something special inside of me that nobody else has. And everybody has this 'special something' too. That's what makes you unique! That's why I can joke around with my friends. That's why they think i'm a weirdo. That'S why I always try to act funny and interesting when I am actually not at all, because I want the people around me to be happy and smile. But then, if that makes me look like a weirdo in front of my friends, I don't really mind. 'Cause I know that i'm special. I tell almost everybody that I know that they are pretty or cute, because they really are! I hate it the most when people only look superficially at things and do not see the good things that are really inside! Including themselves. Sometimes, whenever I tell one of my friends they are pretty, they don't really take my words seriously because they only think that i'm bootlicking them or trying to be nice by saying such sweet words. I tell them that they are wrong, i really mean it. But I can see from their expressions they don't believe me. That is kind of sad, when I am actually trying to raise their self confidence, as well as mine's. But then, I really know that everybody is really beautiful deep down inside. So they shouldn't despise themselves just because they look ugly or odd. But then, a pity the person who is saying these things is the victim of her own words.

Ohmy this is quite a long post! :O I shall continue another time. When i'm free. Bye my online Diary! :)

Love,
Vivian

posted by Vivian at Wednesday, July 06, 2011